Dudes in need of dudelyness...

milnie · February 11, 2012, 04:19:14 PM

Read you clear dude. You have my support whatever you choose. I'll try and keep the negative waves in check.

Caesar dude · February 14, 2012, 09:00:55 PM

Sorry Milnie,

Wasn't meaning to sound harsh. I know you have my back dude... as I said before I'm feeling some undude vibes right now and trying to keep a lid on it all.

Here to lighten the mood a tad.

For valentines day and every day in fact.

I met you at day break on an August morning..daylight catching your beautiful red hair which outshone the sun reflecting from the cornfield of gold we were standing in...the beauty wasn't just there in your face or the countryside but in those beautiful blue eyes and that smile.... smitten...bowled over and instantly in love is where I fell.... Cupids arrow indeed my friend. That field will always be there as will I my beautiful lady. I love you Chantelle. x

Peace.

Caesar dude · April 06, 2012, 09:13:49 PM

And so the tragedy goes on...Chantelle continues to sleep...meanwhile in this year...her grandmother has died...my ex partner's grandmother has died....Chantelle's mother's best friend Nigel died suddenly from leukemia and now today, Nigel's son has been killed in a motorbike crash.....his wife Sarah has visited Chantelle consistently despite the pain of losing her husband.

I just don't know dudes...I just don't know....

Hominid · April 06, 2012, 09:19:16 PM

Dude, I feel your pain. I've also had a number of people I knew pass away in a short time - makes you shake your head, wondering if there's something in the water...

Stay strong man - every day above ground is a good one.

Caesar dude · April 06, 2012, 09:33:36 PM

Quoteevery day above ground is a good one.

It doesn't feel like that today mate I can tell you....

DigitalBuddha · April 06, 2012, 09:56:31 PM

Quote from: Caesar dude on April 06, 2012, 09:13:49 PM
And so the tragedy goes on...Chantelle continues to sleep...meanwhile in this year...her grandmother has died...my ex partner's grandmother has died....Chantelle's mother's best friend Nigel died suddenly from leukemia and now today, Nigel's son has been killed in a motorbike crash.....his wife Sarah has visited Chantelle consistently despite the pain of losing her husband.

I just don't know dudes...I just don't know....

It's days and seasons like this that if you try to make sense of it all you just wind up driving yourself crazy. It doesn't always make sense, it doesn't have to, life that is, it just is. The best thing to do is keep on abiding and looking forward to what is over the horizon. The point of living is to live and abide. IMHO.

Caesar dude · April 06, 2012, 10:15:11 PM

My point of living is to watch my beautiful son grow...he's a young man now of 13 but looks 16 and has the attitude of a 24 year old . He started playing keyboard a year ago and has now saved and bought his own piano...I caught him playing this the other day

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0VwTw1eZ1k

by ear and when he thought no one else was in the room

He's really rather good. Chantelle would have loved it....the bit from 10 seconds in is a bit tricky and then it gets harder!! but he just knows how to play. I'm in awe.

He keeps me straight in a world full of shit.

Peace

DigitalBuddha · April 07, 2012, 12:12:56 AM

Quote from: Caesar dude on April 06, 2012, 10:15:11 PM
My point of living is to watch my beautiful son grow...he's a young man now of 13 but looks 16 and has the attitude of a 24 year old . He started playing keyboard a year ago and has now saved and bought his own piano...I caught him playing this the other day

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0VwTw1eZ1k

by ear and when he thought no one else was in the room

He's really rather good. Chantelle would have loved it....the bit from 10 seconds in is a bit tricky and then it gets harder!! but he just knows how to play. I'm in awe.

He keeps me straight in a world full of shit.

Peace

Cool that your son is into music. Far out, man. And some day, perhaps Chantelle WILL hear him play.

Caesar dude · May 27, 2012, 08:58:51 PM

So once again if anyone here cares to listen is an update on Chantelle's condition.

Blue eyes has started to become more awake not more alert or attentive. She looks around the room a lot more and now moves her head occasionally towards something that she wants to see...that doesn't extend to the fact that someone may walk in the room and she will look at them.

She will stare intently at the TV as if she is watching it and will sometimes look at me as I'm talking to her as if she is hanging on my every word....but will just as easily drift away and lose interest.

She has also started to become a lot more vocal in as much as she makes some noises with her throat or moaning sounds which are as far from communication as silence can be and indeed are at times distressing to hear.

Everyday I wish for more and every day I become more and more disheartened.

16 months in and my hopes are fading dudes.

I wake up every day with sadness and fall asleep with the same bedfellow.

Peace.

DigitalBuddha · May 27, 2012, 09:25:33 PM

Hey C Dude, I don't know the total history of your special lady's condition, but it sounds like she is making some progress. Am I wrong? I don' think you have posted anything before in that kind of detail about her looking around the room, watching TV or being more awake. To me, dude, it sounds encouraging.

Hang in there, dude. It isn't over until its over.

cckeiser · May 28, 2012, 12:03:14 AM

You need to Believe dude...it's the Thoughts that count.

meekon5 · May 28, 2012, 06:36:06 AM

There is very little way we (I) can even begin to comprehend how you feel. But is your sadness only an aspect of your impatiences. You may only see it as little improvements because you are there day in, day out. We on the other hand (who only get the occasional update) see her improving by leaps and bounds. From what you describe today, compared to previous missives she has made huge improvements.

We are as always putting our hopes and whatever perception of prayers (we each have) at your disposal, always with the hope she gets ever more better.

Caesar dude · May 28, 2012, 04:24:44 PM

Thanks dudes.

I know you are right of course. If I go back to this time last year I can see that there has been a lot of improvement albeit on a small scale.

I'm just a bit overwhelmed at the moment and don't seem to have any life outside work and the care home. I guess I just need a break.

Thank you again for keeping us in your thoughts.

Peace.

milnie · May 28, 2012, 04:55:16 PM

Mate, we're here 24/7. All hopes and prayers are with you. I have been wondering how you and her care service are getting on. At the start of the year there were a few issues?

DigitalBuddha · May 28, 2012, 06:40:09 PM

Quote from: Caesar dude on May 28, 2012, 04:24:44 PM
Thanks dudes.

I know you are right of course. If I go back to this time last year I can see that there has been a lot of improvement albeit on a small scale.

I'm just a bit overwhelmed at the moment and don't seem to have any life outside work and the care home. I guess I just need a break.

Thank you again for keeping us in your thoughts.

Peace.

C dude, get out and about, get yourself a lane, have a few brews, take it easy for a while; all dudes need to do that once in a while and you deserve it, mang.