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Title: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: meekon5 on January 22, 2012, 08:43:49 AM
As the title suggests this is a bit of me stoking my own pipe.

I've just started trying to write a bit more.

I'm also working my way through my back log of DVD's that I have as yet not watched.

So combining the two I have started reviewing the films I'm catching up on, on my blog.

I would appreciate constructive criticism on the following:

http://meekon5.blogspot.com/2012/01/social-network-meekon5-review.html

http://meekon5.blogspot.com/2012/01/source-code-meekon5-review.html

I don't claim it's any form a genius, but if any of you have the time.

At the moment there are only two of them but I have eleven more to catch up with (seen but not written up yet) and am watching about two to four films a week at the moment. So more to come on a regular basis.
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: WabiSabi on January 22, 2012, 03:47:23 PM
You are a brave man!  :o   

I haven't jumped there (to your blog) yet ... but I will and I'll be back ... "brace yer self matey"  ;) ;D ;D ;D
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: WabiSabi on January 22, 2012, 04:00:28 PM
Okay ... I've been there (to your blog) ... so now I can speak with authority ;)

First of all I have to preempt my comments about your blogging with a comment about your bio ... it's bloody brilliant! Slathering self-deprecation and arrogant condescendence all at once ... I truly loved it! (I even sent it along to a friend who also got a kick out of it too.)

So now to the reviews ... very cool that your doing them. What I like best is that you are there in them as a person, not just talking from some ivory tower, but from in your own being and experience ... cool man, cool.

Not too much to go on about the films themselves (I've seen them both FWIW so maybe that has something to do with it.)

I like your ability to pull me in to the Source Code "conversation" though with a reference to "Inception" ... and again, maybe that has more to do with my agreement about what all the fuss was about that movie. I think it was more than a bit insipid myself (Inception) ... and agree with your views on "Source Code" ... so take my comments with a grain of salt, and have a margherita whilst you're at it.

Okay, bottom line (from my POV) ... I liked the chatty tone, the personality coming through, and I'd like more "something" ... it's okay to drag me in further, even if it takes me another two minutes of reading to get there. Overall, you can write man ... so write!
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: meekon5 on January 23, 2012, 02:05:33 AM
Thanks for that Wabi. (amended from "Thanks for the Wabi" not that it didn't make about as much sense as i usually make)

I put another one up last night:

http://meekon5.blogspot.com/2012/01/rubber-meekon5-review.html
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: DigitalBuddha on January 23, 2012, 04:52:54 AM
Good prose there, M5. An un-compromised first draft. (http://dudeism.com/smf/Themes/classic/images/post/thumbup.gif)
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: cckeiser on January 23, 2012, 11:10:35 AM
I Love they way you write dude. I am quite envious! 8)
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: Caesar dude on January 23, 2012, 07:00:04 PM
I read your poetry Meekon. I read "the longest weekend" and I cried and I remembered and I can't go back there.

Peace.
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: hannahdude on January 23, 2012, 09:25:01 PM
i too, wonder what the dogs could possibly be thinking as they watch us pick up their leavings with our little plastic bags. nice poetic musings, dude.
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: meekon5 on January 24, 2012, 06:35:45 AM
It's a long time since I wrote any poetry.

Mainly because of the event in "the longest weekend" (http://meekon5poetry.blogspot.com/2006/07/longest-weekend-of-my-life.html). Thanks for your comments on that one Caesar. I think more and more people are experiencing some form of unraveling mentally in their lives.

I hit a complete blank.

One of the reasons I'm bloggng the film reviews is to get back into the swing of actually writing something on a regular basis that isn't the usual techno babble that I do at work (don't get me wrong I still love my work).

Thank you all for the comments I plan to continue to do little bits there on a regular basis. I'm going to blog the films I manage to watch in the week, but think I may look back across my collection for some of my favourites (shite and not).
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: WabiSabi on January 24, 2012, 07:59:33 AM
Hey folks ... thanks for pointing me to that poem ...

Feecoo ... that was a bit radical, in the best possible way.

I have never taken the pills, nor heard those voices ... but I have experienced the blackness and I too have returned.

Now I write a little (or a lot) every day ... and read some too.

Thanks
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: milnie on January 24, 2012, 09:01:34 AM
i am always impressed by people who have enough to say that they can write a blog so good going M5. I have thought about setting up a film review blog before but after looking over my film collection gave up. I mean, how can you summarise a film like luc besson's the big blue: "he might be a dolphin"?
anyway, look forward to more from your good self.
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: meekon5 on January 24, 2012, 09:08:59 AM
Quote from: milnie on January 24, 2012, 09:01:34 AM
i am always impressed by people who have enough to say that they can write a blog so good going M5. I have thought about setting up a film review blog before but after looking over my film collection gave up. I mean, how can you summarise a film like luc besson's the big blue: "he might be a dolphin"?
anyway, look forward to more from your good self.

Now I thought the dolphins were mermaids in the big blue.

All you do is write what you felt about it. Anyone can agree or disagree.

and i always have more than enough opinions to be able to share a few of them.
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: milnie on January 24, 2012, 09:13:04 AM
or spirits of the dead (like his father who drowned)
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: WabiSabi on January 24, 2012, 09:26:16 AM
 i always have more than enough opinions to be able to share a few of them


Hahahaha ... touche!
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: Caesar dude on January 24, 2012, 06:56:18 PM
Meekon...always thought we shared some common ground. The poem touched me because it was EXACTLY how I felt and acted...the drugs didn't work for me at all....the love of good people and some sort of inner strength pulled me through those dark days..

You know as well as I do that those days may come again. I know that I wouldn't have got through this year if I hadn't experienced that despair. I would have crumbled at just the moment when someone who needed me the most was in need.

Dark days my friend those curtains drawn, that withdrawal into my cave, that reliance on my spirituality. The pure despair. The hopelessness. You know where that leads. Then one day an awakening. Some sort of brightness. Maybe a strangers words. I can't pin it down but something made me want to push on.

So I did and I got a job (yes sir dressed like that!) and I became....me again...and I started to respect me once more.

And here I am a whole lot more of a rounded person...still with problems that the world knows fuck all about! But at least I'm me and I'm still here.

Writing! Hah! I used to write so so much....then that darkness came...and it stopped!

Maybe one day my muse will return.

Bright blessings Simon. With love and openness and feeling my friend.

Peace
Title: Re: Stoking my own pipe.
Post by: meekon5 on January 25, 2012, 06:34:13 AM
Quote from: Caesar dude on January 24, 2012, 06:56:18 PM
Meekon...always thought we shared some common ground. The poem touched me because it was EXACTLY how I felt and acted...the drugs didn't work for me at all....the love of good people and some sort of inner strength pulled me through those dark days..

You know as well as I do that those days may come again. I know that I wouldn't have got through this year if I hadn't experienced that despair. I would have crumbled at just the moment when someone who needed me the most was in need.

Dark days my friend those curtains drawn, that withdrawal into my cave, that reliance on my spirituality. The pure despair. The hopelessness. You know where that leads. Then one day an awakening. Some sort of brightness. Maybe a strangers words. I can't pin it down but something made me want to push on.

So I did and I got a job (yes sir dressed like that!) and I became....me again...and I started to respect me once more.

And here I am a whole lot more of a rounded person...still with problems that the world knows fuck all about! But at least I'm me and I'm still here.

Writing! Hah! I used to write so so much....then that darkness came...and it stopped!

Maybe one day my muse will return.

Bright blessings Simon. With love and openness and feeling my friend.

Peace

I think there is a lot more people out there that have had problems and are unable to talk about it.

I find that by writing I am able to release some of the frustration and anger that builds up (mostly at myself for having got myself into the situation).

I miss performing poetry as often as I used to but (grown up job, lots of commuting) I don't have as much free time at the moment.

I still have good days, and bad days. Some days I stand at the front door and it takes every ounce of my courage and will power just to open it and step out, other times it just opens and I am on my way before I even think about it.

My writing has always been very important to me, from school onwards. I was always one of the ones asked to read my stories to the class, I even went through a period where myself and a group of friends used to put on little plays weekly for the class.

I don't particularly keep a diary, but in some of the worse times I turn to writing.

My voices are not as mental (or as much of a symptom of mental illness) as they sound. They are the my creative voices, but mine tend to chunter on incessantly, so I do tend to appear to be the nut job on the bus when I forget myself and start to have a full blown argument with them. I understand that it is all me, I don't identify them as different or apart form myself (no schizophrenia problems) but occasionally they do just run with an idea or conversation, and I just sit and write it down. At times I can become lost in my revere and actually begin to see the situation.

I actually believe it's an element of my childhood that I never lost.

So imagine the loss when the drugs just stopped them talking.

I've always been aware that by talking about my problems it has at least helped others to realise they are not alone.

Years ago when I used to talk and perform poetry about being an ex-beaten husband, I would get some very good responses (performance (http://meekon5.blogspot.com/search?q=performance)). I find now more and more men are standing up and being counted as ex-beaten husbands. Now I don't think I'm tottaly instrumental, but I like to think I had a little to do with changing attetudes and getting people to feel they can talk about things.

I think what I'm saying is "It's good to talk", but it's also good to write. Even if you only do a little at a time (little by little), this forum has helped, all of you being witness to some of my longer rants.