Self Reflections

[The Lennon]

Hi everyone, I wanted to share where I've been, and what I have been up to since you last heard from me.

For the past several months I have spent lots of time self reflecting as I went through many internal shifts, as well as working on some projects. Here are the realizations I've come to.

From the time I enrolled in Elementary school I began to act like characters and adapt personality traits from video games, tv, music, etc so I began to become something that wasn't me, all because I wanted to be accepted by classmates who didn't understand me. In the process I forgot who I was and continued through many years learning, experiencing, and coming from a space of a character I became. Years later during highschool and college I began to make more friends and connections, and when people were friendly with me and spent time with me, I realized they were spending time with the person they thought I was because of the way I portrayed myself. I wasn't sure how I could shift the situation I was in, so I was escaping my reality through physical enjoyments such as playing video games, eating dead food, and using soft drugs that I thought were beneficial. I was also aligning myself with others who were doing the same things, encouraging the lifestyles that didn't fit me.

I felt something was off so I started looking for my identity, I questioned who I was and began publicly labeling myself to try to connect with others who were similar. I was over compensating because I didn't feel comfortable with who I was at the time. For years I believed that I truly was the mask I had created, it was the same thing I was doing back in elementary school, only this time I was getting attention and attracting people with those interests.

I started to notice that much of the problems i was in were around waiting for someone or something else to rescue me, so I began seeking the advice of others and later began doing the same thing to other people. I gave advice, causing them to be dependent on me by thinking I can rescue them from their problems. I came from a space of ego instead of unconditional love, all for attention and acceptance so I wouldn't feel alone.

Somewhere along the lines I began to get glimpses of the reality of where I was and I began to focus more on my spirituality.

It was around that time that I made the decision to leave home and go on a personal journey to Southern California. It was both a journey outwardly and inwardly for me as I had no choice but to take responsibility on a greater scale for my actions. I had no safety net to rescue me from the real situations I was experiencing and I slowly began to accept myself for who I really was. When I returned to what I left behind in Sacramento I realized I could no longer tolerate what I had been doing in the past. I spent time witnessing and engaging in talks about other people and situations of separation with others, which was wrecking the unity consciousness I had envisioned. I started recognizing those who held space for me to truly be myself on a core level, I noticed I felt fulfilled. It was the feeling of being accepted by those who truly have that inner acceptance for who they are inside.

After getting a taste of this I tried to shift some of the other people around me to try to get them to see my view point as I didn't want to let go of any of the friends I had, but I later realized that people have a choice to where they want to be in a particular moment, and that I have no power over where someone chooses to be. I had attracted everyone around me from the space of wearing a mask and everyone viewed me as that mask, they held that vision of me so no matter how much I changed internally they still had a fixation on who I used to be and represent. I noticed I was slowly regressing back to the mask after a few weeks of staying in Sacramento and I knew I needed to hold that internal focus on what I really wanted to do; contribute to the planet and all its inhabitants in my own way.

I began working on returning to my core, focusing on my higher purpose, and chose to spend time with a few people who gave me the space to do that. During this inner awakening I really began to see my true self again, which is what I needed to manifest my Twin Flame, the other half of my key to contribute to the planet on the greatest scale possible, it's the connection I wanted since I was small. From the moment we met all of my illusions and masks were dissolved as it was like viewing myself in the mirror. I could finally be myself and fully be accepted for who I truly am, as twins we are the exact soul essence of each other and have no choice but to recognize our higher self at all times.

Together we spent time in South Africa where we did planetary gridwork on top of Table Mountain in Capetown, working with fast frequency energies to ground and anchor our Twin Flame connection as well as the reunification of our original soul families, this means being drawn to frequencies of people, places, and things we resonate with the most.

It also became more apparent to me the processed food I had been eating so I switched to eating Raw Vegan food and within 2 days there was an immediate shift. My thoughts were clearer, I had more energy than I ever had before, and It made it so much easier to be in the present moment; aiding my inner clarity.

Since I returned from South Africa I have been living in Mount Shasta which is an energetic training ground where energies and thoughts are amplified and manifested much faster than anywhere else,

It also became even more crystal clear to me that one of the responsibilities I hold for the planet and its inhabitants is that I can't be anything else but who I am at a core level. I had to look in the mirror to see what I've actually been doing to myself and others over the past several years, it's a review to fully understand my experiences thus far.

This whole awakening process made me conscious of the plans and commitments I had made with some of you, such as finishing The Little Lebowski, music recording, and acting/theater projects. I didn't take seriously the commitments I was making nor did I take responsibility for the impact it had on other people.

I knew if I wanted to become clear with myself I needed to let go of the facades that were the basis for those commitments.

I was in a very different space at that time, and didn't realize the greater picture of what I was committing to and I do apologize for the lack of responsibility on my part. Once I realized this I pressed a pause button in order to take a step back to cleanse myself spiritually, emotionally, physically, and mentally to be at a crystal clear space and vibrate deep from within my core inner being.

I also want to share that as i started to really be myself I began to participate in the ascension through various projects including Golden Rainbow Villages. I began experiencing a whole new world of the vision I had always carried and I want to invite you if you feel to be part of the project.

This is an equal space where people from over 30 countries come to share about what they do in the form of a book, cd, and DVD compilation, uncensored and unedited with 100 percent royalty going to kids in South Africa.

It was designed to create an equal platform for everyone to share who they really are without judgment or duality (meaning there is no difference between good/bad, right/wrong etc).

So if you feel also to share something here is the link with more info: http://goldenrainbowvillages.com/book.aspx


Gratitude for the experiences, the lessons that were learned, and your contribution in your own way to aid me thus far, sending love and light

-Lennon



Realizing that we can make a difference is the first step in making one. We are all here on this planet for a reason, so let's claim our piece of the puzzle and start participating

[cckeiser]

Happy to see you're ok. Welcome back!

[The Lennon]

 

Sending L0VE~

[4weeddude]

Set the pins up... pour the Oat Soda's

[Caesar dude]

Now that's a journey Lennon Dude. I've been over to the Golden Rainbow site briefly...will have to look at it properly when I have a bit more time.

Love and peace dude...love and peace.

[The Lennon]

Cool Caeser dude saw your comment on the chat, let me know if you're interested in submitting something as the deadline for Golden Rainbow Villages is August 30th 2011, here is the facebook event page if you want more info.
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=270680902944957

Gratitude for the post. L0VE and Light